You think they are to young to see
Maybe they will never know
How I loved their father so
That I refused to love me
I lost myself
So that He could have me, control me, abuse me
I lived for HIS rare consolation
approval
acceptance
convienence
Meanwhile, HE lived for my body, pride, and all HE did was lie
HE took all of my breath and strength
That is why I rarely hugged you or kissed
I Never traveled with you, encouraged you
Had no sense of purpose, nor could I construct one within you
Lost all of my faith, searching for my faith N HIM
Please understand my child I wanted to give you a father
That is the reason why I stayed
Her daughter lifted her mothers head and said:
The father you sought for me was really for you
While you were fussing with him
I was praying for you
While you neglected me
I was loving you
Albeit he was here - he wasn't
As a result neither were you
Mommy you have your capital letters misplaced
The HIM you fought for was a him
The ME you fought to keep him for was YOU
I could have cared less if he stayed
When he was here all I heard were your tears
Awaking many fears in WE
Mommy I love you, but the life you lived
COULD NEVER BE ME
If he didn't love you - let him be free
His neglect is no hinderance in my life
It only helped me discern that HE is only a he
YOU were only a SHE
LOOKING out for a fake HE
Meanwhile I sought the MASTER KEY
I am now set free
MY HE stepped N and fathered ME
GAVE me a outlook on life that I will never flee
Never allow anyone to take advantage of you
Because while you think HE is only offending you
Your children also are black and blued!
Thank you King Jesus for being my Daddy and King
Psalm 27:10 (KJV)
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.